You
don’t get to where I got in my professional career without, in addition to possessing skill, demonstrating a high level of responsibility and accountability. In my case, this built on itself throughout the years of my
working life; beginning with small and then larger successes that came to the attention of my
superiors; year after year, task after task, project after project, until, lo
and behold I was identified as an “extremely
responsible person with superior judgment.”
Wow. And this from a kid who grew
up in the suburbs of San Diego California, partying on its beaches, with no
more drive regarding my college education except to simply go, because
otherwise, all four of my parents would have disowned me. I did go; however, it took my five years to graduate
because, well, I did go to San Diego State University, THE party school of the country, and my grades were, let’s say, passable, but, man. There is something about basic intellect and
savvy that will get you places that a 4.0 never will. Thank you, gene pool.
So,
yeah. I am reliable. I will always be reliable, this is not something easily shaken off; even if one is technically "retired". People know they can depend on me. And, it’s not as if I don’t want that because I do; one of the worst possible feelings I can imagine is that of
knowing I let someone down.
Why
is it, then, that I believe it’s ok to let myself
down?
Oh
dear readers, that particular question is one for the ages; one that would
require an entire series to answer. I
suspect, also, that it’s one that many of you may resonate with.
But
here’s my pledge to myself. And, because
a good friend told me today at Starbucks at approximately 1:30 pm that I need to hold myself accountable to myself, I’m making it public because
otherwise, I may welch out of it (ok, that Southern California party girl still exists in me somewhere!):
- I will go on my planned 3 day silent spiritual retreat in September.
- I will blog about said retreat (and my reasoning behind going) at least once per week before I go.
- I will blog at least 3 times per week about this and other topics, whether anyone is reading or not.
There
you have it, and that is all…for now.
Mrs.
B
